[ :pensive: but when he doesn't push or shy away from their hand, their hand lowers to gingerly grip at his wrist. not really holding his hand, but as close as they can get. of course, the grip is loose, uncertain if this was fine- he can shake it off very easily. ]
...I had thought being infected by the Gnos was terrible, it felt like your mind was being slowly pulled apart. The longer it was, it felt like.. you were merging into something bigger. You were starting to lose what made you... you. [ they peer up at him, a glow of concern still on their expression. ] It doesn't compare to what you guys experienced. The thought of.. being there, but not, getting quieter and quieter...
It sounds terrifying. [ they whisper that. because it does. it sounds like being shut in a dark room. even if they were infected as Gnosia, they would just quickly finish the loop and move on to escape from it. but for Jonas and Alex-- if they had been possessed permanently... how do you go back from that? it's neither here nor there but... it hurts to think that Jonas and Alex both could have lost themselves entirely. ]
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...I had thought being infected by the Gnos was terrible, it felt like your mind was being slowly pulled apart. The longer it was, it felt like.. you were merging into something bigger. You were starting to lose what made you... you. [ they peer up at him, a glow of concern still on their expression. ] It doesn't compare to what you guys experienced. The thought of.. being there, but not, getting quieter and quieter...
It sounds terrifying. [ they whisper that. because it does. it sounds like being shut in a dark room. even if they were infected as Gnosia, they would just quickly finish the loop and move on to escape from it. but for Jonas and Alex-- if they had been possessed permanently... how do you go back from that? it's neither here nor there but... it hurts to think that Jonas and Alex both could have lost themselves entirely. ]