It's alright. ..Despite everything, it helps a bit.. to go over it again. To try and sort my thoughts out. Maybe, after a few days of clearing my head.. I'll be able to notice more that I didn't today.
[ they glance off again, quiet for a moment. ]
There isn't much left to it since we mostly fought back until the very end. [ one hand carefully touches their own shoulder, reaching just slightly for their back. ] ..Matsui was handling the boar with both of us aiding him. But, it ended up splitting into three, while I tried to lend some help to Kaveh and Nahida both who were getting cornered.
[ ... ] It's because of my distraction there that you tried protecting me. [ which is... where his death clearly comes in. ] Shortly after, I got ambushed by one boar from behind, the other in front...
[ which, when they had arrived and Fukuzawa offered to help them-- that was the most obvious injuries that can be seen as day. two large puncture holes on either side of Setsu's spine. if that hadn't been healed, they most definitely would have died. especially after all that blood loss. and the front injury.. well, their eye probably says enough. ] It started to go downhill from there. Shu got killed not long after trying to help Kaveh, Matsui and Nahida were both severely injured in that moment... Shenhe tried to take the lead and protect us but also died in the process.
[ the longer they talk about it, the closer he seems to get to as if reminding them that it's over and that he's still sitting right next to them. he nods in agreement because it makes sense to do a debrief when you can, but the frown doesn't leave his face as he listens to them. ]
...you can't blame yourself for trying to help other people. Especially people who showed up in Teyvat with you without a clue how or why. It doesn't...sound like it was an easy battle at all. But something must have happened that you were able to win. Right?
[ the closer he gets, the more they lean to him, shaking themselves from their memories before they fell too deep into them. as real as everything felt back there- it couldn't be. because what did that mean about here? what did that mean about now? ..it only complicates their thoughts some more.
they shake their head a little, focusing more on his words. ] We just kept fighting. I kept thinking that... you wouldn't want me to give up, the others wouldn't want any of us to. So we just... sorta gave it our all?
Of course, after I had thought we won, we ended up all falling deep into the sea. [ and with their injuries, everything they went through- they kinda just... sank. ] ..I think something... someone? saved us though. I woke up briefly after a while and we seemed to be somewhere else. Somewhere safe. [ ... ] It was after that that we ended up showing back here.
[ he winces a little as they describe the ending. he doesn't disagree. he would tell them to keep fighting solely to save themselves and get back to where they needed to be. giving up isn't an option in most cases. but then to still feel hopeless after you finish everything, sinking to the bottom of the oceans and thinking that may just be the end...
...it's kind of rough, he thinks. ]
Sounds pretty scary to just end like that. I think you guys were dropped off by, like, a bird? I'm not sure. We saw it overhead before we found you guys. Maybe it doesn't matter who or how. It only matters that you were brought back safe.
A bird? I see, so that's what happened... [ one hand lightly touches the makeshift bandages over their eye. ]
Right... right. [ a steady breath, trying to gather their nerves, but something was ripped from them. a lot was, really. and they can only curl a little in. ] ...That's all that happened. That's all of it.
[ and a bit hushed, quieter, as if mostly to talk to themselves ] It troubles me to be this weak, but I...
[ he looks at them curiously, making sure they aren't hurting themselves more on accident. ]
But nothing. [ kind of more firm than usual. ] This isn't about being strong or weak at this point. This is about just being glad to be alive and making it back. You did that much. That's all we care about right now.
[ especially in a game where people can disappear so easily if someone simply feels like it. ]
Just try to relax a little. It's over. We've got you here.
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[ they glance off again, quiet for a moment. ]
There isn't much left to it since we mostly fought back until the very end. [ one hand carefully touches their own shoulder, reaching just slightly for their back. ] ..Matsui was handling the boar with both of us aiding him. But, it ended up splitting into three, while I tried to lend some help to Kaveh and Nahida both who were getting cornered.
[ ... ] It's because of my distraction there that you tried protecting me. [ which is... where his death clearly comes in. ] Shortly after, I got ambushed by one boar from behind, the other in front...
[ which, when they had arrived and Fukuzawa offered to help them-- that was the most obvious injuries that can be seen as day. two large puncture holes on either side of Setsu's spine. if that hadn't been healed, they most definitely would have died. especially after all that blood loss. and the front injury.. well, their eye probably says enough. ] It started to go downhill from there. Shu got killed not long after trying to help Kaveh, Matsui and Nahida were both severely injured in that moment... Shenhe tried to take the lead and protect us but also died in the process.
[ it was... a bloody mess back to back. ]
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...you can't blame yourself for trying to help other people. Especially people who showed up in Teyvat with you without a clue how or why. It doesn't...sound like it was an easy battle at all. But something must have happened that you were able to win. Right?
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they shake their head a little, focusing more on his words. ] We just kept fighting. I kept thinking that... you wouldn't want me to give up, the others wouldn't want any of us to. So we just... sorta gave it our all?
Of course, after I had thought we won, we ended up all falling deep into the sea. [ and with their injuries, everything they went through- they kinda just... sank. ] ..I think something... someone? saved us though. I woke up briefly after a while and we seemed to be somewhere else. Somewhere safe. [ ... ] It was after that that we ended up showing back here.
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...it's kind of rough, he thinks. ]
Sounds pretty scary to just end like that. I think you guys were dropped off by, like, a bird? I'm not sure. We saw it overhead before we found you guys. Maybe it doesn't matter who or how. It only matters that you were brought back safe.
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Right... right. [ a steady breath, trying to gather their nerves, but something was ripped from them. a lot was, really. and they can only curl a little in. ] ...That's all that happened. That's all of it.
[ and a bit hushed, quieter, as if mostly to talk to themselves ] It troubles me to be this weak, but I...
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But nothing. [ kind of more firm than usual. ] This isn't about being strong or weak at this point. This is about just being glad to be alive and making it back. You did that much. That's all we care about right now.
[ especially in a game where people can disappear so easily if someone simply feels like it. ]
Just try to relax a little. It's over. We've got you here.